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added: 11-08-2019 ・ last edited:17-06-2020

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This section is dedicated to developing a praxis for thinking about and addressing what’s urgent today.


At the age of 24 I have polluted enough for a lifetime. It is time I live a life of modesty and with more regard for my community and environment. I have decided to stop flying, as a signal to myself and perhaps to others. Next step is to stop eating meat.



Herbert Simon - The Sciences of the Artificial

All mathematics exhibits in its conclusions only what is already implicit in its premises… Hence all mathematical derivation can be viewed simply as chase in representation, making evident what was previously true but obscure.

This view can be extended to all of problem solving-solving a problem simply means repenting it so as to make the solution transparent. If the problem solving could actually be organised in these terms, the issue of representation would indeed become central. But even if it cannot-if this is too exaggerated a view-a deeper understanding of how representations are created and how they contribute to the solution of problems will become an essential component of the future theory of design.

Engelbart - quoted in The Dream Machine

Manipulating words seemed like the obvious place to start because it was a way to manipulate your ideas.

Devine -

Optimizing toward the need for less revenue has yielded better results than optimizing toward the generation of more.

The goal is to build a catalog of exciting things to wake up to the next day and to experiment with.

Katherine Ye - on Twitter

When you make your own tools, you tend to mold them to fit your hands. So they may fit others' poorly. Other people who tried "part of speech" told me that the experience felt dehumanizing, that the conversation partner's responses felt irrelevant and jarring. I feel that too.


This section is dedicated to exploring ideas that relate to spaces created by and with people.

An Ode to the Spaces I Want to Create

During the summer of 2019 I was inspired to try to state what kinds of spaces I would like to create.

[This ode is a work in progress]

I wanna create spaces where people grow

places of kindness

and trust


where richness comes with inclusivity

and people can feel at home

immerse themselves


with others: decentralised and transparent

environments not lectures

give people ownership


Return Statement

In the summer of 2019 I went to the Recurse Center. At the end of my time there I wrote the following about the space we were part of / co-created.

[This is the first draft of this writing and will change in the coming days]

My time at the Recurse Center was a period of deep immersion and close-knit community which gave rise to an explosion of passion and productivity.

Now that the batch is coming to an end I have an urge to try to describe what I learned.

Most of my time at RC was spent engaging in a learning-based projecting process. The learning aspect of the process was conserned with mastering programming and the projecting aspect was focussed on exploring media.

The outcome of this process is a range of prototypes most of which are incomplete:

In the process of making these tools I learnt about:

  • How to use Vue-CLI with Typescript and Electron
  • Some of the inner workings of Git
  • Vue component model
  • Midi protocol basics
  • The Rust programming language
  • Ownership & memory management
  • Number types, eg u32, i8, float
  • Multi-threading by using asynchronous channels
  • HPGL pen-plotter basics
  • How to create a browser extension from scratch
  • GSFL data stream apis
  • How to use Typescript in a variety of different dev setups
  • Emacs org-mode
  • graphics basics
  • tailwindcss
  • Glitch!

These projects have served as great vehicles for learning and exploration!

I also learnt a lot about how to work with others and contribute by doing some different activities:

Pair Programming:

This was one of my main insecurities when I joined the Recurse Center: I was simply insecure about my ability to collaborate on writing code with others. However, during my time at RC it became one of my favorite activities.

Pairing is a social activity in which each person is bringing their knowledge and viewpoints. As there are often multiple ways of solving different challenges the discussion naturally becomes about style and how to think.

Creating a Webring for the Recurse Center Community:

One of the most meaningful things I did at RC was contributing to the building of community by creating a webring to encourage recursers to create homes for themselves online.

A webring is a collection of websites traditionally linked together by a circular structure. A website which is part of a webring will have an icon on its site linking either to the central webring or another site which is part of the ring.

The process of doing a project for the community makes you more part of the community. In the end, multiple people ended up working on the webring, it became a meeting space for some of us.

Creating a Home for Myself Online

I also made countless changes to my personal site

The other aspect of my experinece which is perhaps as immense as my projecting is the social experience of being at the Recurse Center.

Before I came to Recurse Center I was impressed to the point of suspicion about the great things people say about the place. Many speak of the space as changing their outlook not just on programming but also on learning, community, and perhaps life. Being exposed to these ideas and essays, as someone who had not been in the space, I felt intrigued, but I also felt that I did not quite have a sense of what this space was like or why it ended up having such profound impact on many people.

Being at Recurse Center now I feel like I understand a little more about why it is described as it is. It can be hard to express something for which one does not have words to describe. I surely feel like I have gained insights from going to the Recurse Center that I might not be able to describe for quite a while.

However, like many others, I will try to express the ways in which this space made a big impression on me.

One thing which is central to Recurse Center as a space is the social rules:

  • No feigning surprise
  • No well-actually's
  • No back-seat driving
  • No subtle -isms

I warmly encourage you to have a look at how they are described in the Recurse Center Manual!

What is powerful about the social rules is how concise they are. One of effect this briefness is that they become easier to think about and thus put into practice. I feel like the rules are present in the space in a way that would be impossible if they were described in a long essay.

Also, their briefness do not necessailry take a lot away from their richness. I was talking about this with another recurser yesterday: the social rules address subtle things which often go unnoticed in other spaces and the effect of that is the initiation of reflection on many other subtleties in how we act. So despite being brief they uncover a lot of things which remain unaddressed in many spaces.

Another important aspect is the physical space. Having spent the last couple of months at the space I feel that it is one of the most well-designed physical spaces I have ever encountered. This really hit me during my first week at RC. I come into the space in the morning and find a table which can be raised, being 191cm I usually have to hunch down at tables which are standard size, I realized I forgot my headphones and realized that it is okay because there are headphones available that I can borrow, I am tired in the afternoon and realize that there is a space for me to take a nap, I want to receive a package and RC allow people to send packages to the space, there is a printer available for everyone to use... The list goes on and on. I also feel that the space has been designed to make it possible for a large variety of people to feel at home: for example, a baby attended Recurse Center with both of their parents for the first week of my batch. What allowed for this was accomodations such as a wellness room. A lot of the bugs which exist in normal spaces have been addressed at Recurse Center, this makes the experience of being in the space seemless, pleasant, and welcoming to a wide variety of people. It is my impression that the current design of the space has grown out of a years-long process in which the facilitators have been receptive to the feedback of the people who came to use the space.

One effect of this is that recursers start to feel an ownership of the space. Something that made me feel that the center was my space is the how I and all the other participants have 24 / 7 access to all the facilities. It is amazing to observe what happens when communities are given access to spaces and resources. The folk-high-school inspired boarding school I went to when I was 15 was similar. The motto of the school was "freedom with responsability". This motto was actionised by having all of the schools facilites remain unlocked at all times. Students were free to use the film cameras in the media workshop or the paints in the studio. The result of that was an explosion of creativity and projects as well as a highly responsible student body. We knew that if the cameras break the school would not have money to replace them. So we took care of the space. There is a similar dynamic at Recurse Center. The policy which gives people access demonstrates how at Recurse Center trust is put before control.

When I was making the ring I was unsure of the extent to which the ring could be associated with the Recurse Center brand. Having just graduated from a school in which you might receive an angry email if you used the school's logo without asking for permission I was surprised to find out that Recursers are encouraged to associate their projects with RC. So, I ended up using the RC logo and registering an RC subdomain for the project. I love this! The community is the brand is the community.

So, I was provided with a lot of ways to feel part of the space and the community. It is was done in a way that made me feel a part and welcome from a very early stage. This brings me to the perhaps most central concept which Recurse Center has allowed me to rework: Learning.

RC has

  1. inspired me to take control of my own learning
  2. showed me how great learning with others can be
  3. as a result of 2 made me be open about my learning process in all its messiness and beauty.
  4. made me keen on sharing as much I can with others

In most schools we let others tell us what to learn. Over time we get used to being fed knowledge without question why those particular pieces of knowledge where seen to be essential while others we disregarded. When I came to RC I was already on my way to taking back control: for the last year of college I had spend more time doing independent projects than coursework. At Recurse Center each participant needs to decide on what to make of their time. This is hard. All of a sudden you have access to more learning opportunities related to computation than ever before and you have to prioritise what kinds of things you want to learn while also finding projects which will allow you to learn those concepts. However, after two months of doing that I feel empowered and responsible for my own learning.

Now it is time to leave Recurse Center. I feel the sandcorns of time trickle through my fingers: what seemed like a long time has passed in the blink of an eye. I am left in awe at how many incredible friends I have made in only two months. Friends who, despite perhaps not knowing everything about me, have made me feel seen, appreciated, and at home <3


This section is dedicated to exploring values and ideals in relation to the future.

Internal Targets goals dealing with personal growth

  • Find Refuge
  • Immerse myself
  • Keeping my living space tidy
  • Keeping my body healthy

External Targets having an effect on the outside world.

  • Net Positive
  • Share thoughts
  • Build Community
  • Promote Inclusivity / Diversity

Every year I try and reflect on the extent to which my life has become oriented towards my targets. EOY 2019


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Fermentation is a powerful concept whose meaning expands much beyond mere foods.